So…one of the little things that surprisingly has helped me push back my depression has been my monthly Birchbox subscription. Fun little packets and of hair oils, makeup samples and skin treatments. (Thanks for renewing my subscription mom!) I don’t know how to use some of the stuff and am too stubborn to read the directions! I have fun playing though.
And…since I’m experiencing some kind of sudden and surprising massive reprieve/remission from some of my “blues” right now, I decided to have some fun. Not sure how long this will last…but I’m not thinking about that! I finally pulled out the red (Cozy Crimson) POP lipstick I got one month. I didn’t smear it all over my face, I didn’t get it on my teeth and it lasted a long time. Win win!
This isn’t about The look or the makeup people…it’s about confidence! I felt ok doing something that didn’t make me blend in! Confidence…what a foreign concept! It felt really odd…
Now, this isn’t to say I have to use makeup to feel pretty. I’m completely fine going out like this (no makeup…air dried hair).
That red lipstick was a visual benchmark that I’m winning this battle for mental health. I tried something new. I felt self conscious, but didn’t wipe it off. This was a huge step! It’s the little things, the collection of little things like this that help me gain momentum! Suck it, depression. You’re going down!!